在情绪很差的一段时间里,我窝在床上,看遍了悲剧性结局的电影和剧。我想,我是害怕未来。
看到REC是个偶然,能找到资源就更是天意了,还能翻到英文字幕,虽然不同步,但也能看到大概的意思。
这是个悲伤的故事,以至于直到现在,想到剧情,我也没有办法摆脱心底的情绪。这样的电影有几部呢?中文的包括纪录片《姑奶奶》,凌厉到让你绝望,生无所依的错觉在心底萌芽。日本电影《梦旅人》让我留下了心理障碍,直到今天,还要先看剧情简介再决定心理承受力是否足够观影。韩影的话就是《不后悔》和《REC》了吧。前者,我喜欢的是二人的决然和勇敢,哪怕与世界决裂也要拥抱取暖的勇气。后者,则是它的写实与基调,亚洲有多少同志情侣是经历过如此的伤痛?又是怎样的生离?
这部电影的剧情相当简单:A男主要结婚了,要和男主B度过最后一晚,所以拿了录像机记录下最后的亲密。但男主B并不知情,也许假装并不知情,才能遏制住悲伤的蔓延。早上起来,男主A拿出自己的婚礼请柬放在桌子上,取走了录像机里的带子,走进清晨的街巷里。男主B一直在装睡,知道男主A的离开,但看到请柬,还是不能自己,疯狂冲上阳台上用DV记录下男主A的背影。
我想无论AB他们都知道迟早是要分手的,这在他们的对话中也时常表现出来,只是B并不知道会那么快,这就是最后的一晚。A带着回忆离去,B用DV记录下了自己,记录下这珍贵的回忆,这是一段直面镜头的独白。
00:51:47,137 --> 00:51:50,436
I didn't expect anything special today,
451
00:51:52,609 --> 00:51:54,338
but I was really really happy.
452
00:52:01,284 --> 00:52:03,946
Thank you for loving me
453
00:52:06,256 --> 00:52:08,724
and to care about me.
454
00:52:11,495 --> 00:52:17,092
And thank you for making me happy.
455
00:52:34,050 --> 00:52:38,316
You were always my best friend,
456
00:52:42,759 --> 00:52:46,490
and you always will be.
457
00:52:52,869 --> 00:52:54,461
I...
458
00:52:59,843 --> 00:53:01,572
I think...
459
00:53:04,447 --> 00:53:07,416
I think, we are happy people.
460
00:53:13,823 --> 00:53:20,251
As time goes by,
many things will be forgotten.
461
00:53:25,235 --> 00:53:32,403
But I want to remember today,
forever.
462
00:53:45,956 --> 00:53:50,791
You're a liar.
I don't smell anything.
463
00:54:03,807 --> 00:54:08,506
Don't skip your breakfast,
just because I'm not there.
464
00:54:14,284 --> 00:54:17,720
Don't smoke when you're stressed.
465
00:54:24,694 --> 00:54:26,457
When you're drunk,
466
00:54:28,164 --> 00:54:31,156
ask people around you for help.
467
00:54:42,045 --> 00:54:44,240
There is so much
I wanted to tell you.(我有那么多话想说,)
468
00:54:47,817 --> 00:54:54,017
But, I'm worried it might
be too much for you.(但又担心你听到受不了。)
469
00:55:00,563 --> 00:55:06,502
However, take good care of yourself.
Okay?
470
00:55:09,773 --> 00:55:11,400
Will you promise me that?(但是,能否向我保证,会照顾好自己?)
从清晨开始,影像转为黑白,男主A在公交车上的哭泣,和男主B在镜头前的自白,酝酿出悲伤袭来的气息。影片最后,出现的海边场面,我并不认为是导演慈悲地给出虚幻的希望,安慰人物与观者的情绪,而是由碎片重新还原出了曾经的美好,让我们知道,让世俗和社会毁掉的东西是怎样的美丽。
ps.对于韩国同性电影,非常推荐,导演李宋喜一 Hee-il Leesong的《不后悔》以及他的短片“两天一夜”三部曲《白夜》和《南行》和《忽然之间,去年夏天》,议题的关注点、情感的张力、影片的流畅度绝对超出你的想象。从这点上来讲,韩国电影,确实走在了前面。