Sam的朋友兼经纪人特瑞莎说:
“She is the best mother that I ever saw. Better than my mother. Better than me. I could never be like her, which is always a comfort. She’s like my pace car.”
她是我见过的最好的母亲。比我妈更好,比我也更好。我永远都做不到她那样,不过这也算是种慰藉。她就像我的引导车。
二女儿收起了叛逆和戏谑的态度,认真道:
“My mom was my rock. Every day of my life I wake up and I feel bad. I feel like I’m not going to get through this day, just with all the stuff that’s in my own head. ”
妈妈是我的支柱。每天醒来我都感觉很糟糕,觉得自己撑不过这一天,脑子里一团乱。
“And as soon as I would see her in themorning, I would unload on her:‘Mom, where are my socks?’ or whatever, because I needed to give her some of my… pain. Because I knew she could carry it when I couldn’t.”
当我早上看到妈妈的时候,我就冲她发火:“妈妈我袜子哪儿去了。”诸如此类。
因为我要把一些痛苦转嫁给她。因为我知道,当我不堪重负时,她会帮我扛。
大女儿,唯一独享过妈妈的关爱的孩子,动情地说:
“I never saw any of her work. And I don’t really care about what she did because she’s Mom. And I was jealous because people knew her before I did.”
我没有看过妈妈的作品。我也不在乎她都付出了什么,因为她是妈妈。
我嫉妒那些比我早认识妈妈的人。
“And I never wanted to share her. Not even with my sisters. Because I remember when it was just me and her……and I know that was hard for her but I loved it. So I don’t like that she’s famous or onTV. She’s my mother.”
我从来不想与别人分享她,即使是我的妹妹们。我仍然怀念只有我和她的时光。我知道那段日子对她很难,但我喜欢。所以我不喜欢她出名或者上电视。她是我的妈妈,她属于我。
妈妈躺在“棺材”里一边听一边止不住又哭又笑。算是彻彻底底被大家的“治丧词”给治愈了。几个女儿日常跟她互怼、吵架、冷战、惹各种各样的麻烦。而她全盘承受,毫无支援,强撑着解决每个人的小情绪、小别扭。
直到这个小型“葬礼”,她才第一次听到女儿们真心实意的赞美和感谢。在很多家庭,父母终其一生,都等不到儿女一句真诚的谢谢。所以Sam非常知足。听到了女儿们的话,又让她充满了继续守护这个家庭的动力。